I’ve been wanting to read and write something not related to
covid-19 but here we are – in lockdowns, curfews, voluntary quarantines, etc.
to keep this virus of the size between 0.08 and 0.12 microns from entering our
bodies but force us to enter the digital realm where it’s hard not to let in
terabytes of covid information flood our consciousness.
I believe I have walked every street in Shmeisani and have
mapped where every open grocery store is, not to mention which house I could
rob of sprigs of creepers and other plants that I can easily transplant into this
Airbnb’s garden spaces.
But I’m running out of garden dirt to dig and sow and I’ve
run out of inspiration to write and draw. I’ve been checking my anger and
latent depression over a withdrawal of a job that already had secure funding
and for which I’ve put in so much energy learning and preparing
for even without a contract while waiting for the visa to Yemen.
Mostly because I am a spouse of somebody and those who made
the decision to withdraw their selection of me had a bitter experience with a
wife who held the same role three years ago.
Who knows what happened then. But talk about disillusionment
with decision-making processes in the humanitarian sector. I am the kind of person
who will gladly accept personal loss for a common good but not this or in this
manner.
But much of life, I think, is about getting over disappointments
and losses and moving on, keeping an eye for things to improve and to
celebrate.
Like that patch of dirt just outside of the gate of this Airbnb…
Seriously, I do still manage to summon the energy to keep myself
abreast of conversations in the humanitarian sector like this ALNAP-led webinar
I attended two days ago - Making
aid work for people in crises. Questions of relevance that the humanitarian
community has been talking about for years. Nothing new but it’s precisely that
which make these topics important to open up again and again for discussion to
explore and gain new insights as we cycle through similar crises but in
different contexts and times.
So, yes, first, I need to be thankful for the abundance of
information to work with and gather up the passion and the energy to contribute
to solutions…
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